I've had it with me! Time to do something about it!

Hi all,

I'm 27 years old and I'm sick of not being able to have a decent sex. I don't have a girlfriend, currently unemployed, with all the time in the world to set my mind on porn and depressive thoughts. I became dragged into it so much that I don't even have any urge for sex any more. Lately when I was around a girl that fancied me (you know sometimes girls are looking at you in a seductive way), I didn't even try to make an effort towards her, I just didn't want anything with her. I felt I just didn't wanna talk to them or go through all that dating process, for something I don't even enjoy that much anymore, and I don't even remember when was the last time any of the girls that I had sex with made me cum. It's so much easier just to rub one out while some crazy porn shit is happening on my screen. And I've done a bit of reading about all this stuff, and it's just like they say. First I started with some easygoing action, but then I just wanted more and more disgusting porn.

I came from holidays few days ago and I didn't do it there at all, haven't watched porn, haven't done any edging, haven't had sex, therefore no orgasm at all. So I was off for 5 days. The first thing I did when I came home was of course PMO. I had a boner many times while I was there, watching all those girls in bikinis, I could have done it without porn, but I just went for the easy way out. I really felt disappointed after doing it. It's easy not to do it when you're away always doing something, but when you're alone in the apartment, then it seems impossible to resist the temptation.

I'd suppose to set my own challenge, and I'll allow myself to have sex, but no masturbation, no edging, and no porn.
I'll set myself an realistic target. I believe I can do 2 weeks. I have already been without it for 2 weeks, but that was when I was happy backpacking around Europe. This is a different. Now I spend most of my time in the apartment, with my computer, depressed, alone. This is going to be hard. I count on your support and encouragement. I count on your help.

 

I absolutely agree. It's feels good to have someone who you can talk to about this things and who can understand.
Thank you for all your good wishes, and good luck to you too with your own attempt.

 

Ok.
It's been 6 days now. First week went without any problems. I wasn't really tempted for porn or fappin'. I have to say I am happy with things that happened this week. I kept myself busy, I got lucky, and was working for two full days on Wednesday and Thursday, I had to set up a computer that I bought on Tuesday, went for dinner with my aunt and her family on Friday, so more things happened than usual.
I'm worried about today though. Well, tomorrow to be exact. I'm suppose to go on a party, and for me the hardest is going to be, to stay without with a hangover. That's gonna be my first real challenge in my journey.
Cross fingers, so I don't get tempted.