Hallo there! Nice to be here on this forum and I am looking forward to find some strength here to accomplish my goal: One year with no masturbation, no edging and no porn. I would engage in sexual acts with a steady girlfriend if I might stumble upon my true love in the meantime but no one night stands and such. Who am I? I'm a 35 year old guy from the Netherlands and I have been watching porn obsessively since around 2002, which was the time that I first obtained a computer with internet. My porn addiction went hand in hand with my alcohol and drugs addiction and most definately with my amphetamine addiction. Amphetamines are a pretty big thing here in Holland but it's quite different from meth by the way. I quit my drug and alcohol abuse since the beginning of 2012 when I went into rehad for several months and I have been 100% clean since that time. In rehab I have also been treated for sex addiction and have attented SLAA meetings when I was there. It didn't really help at that time since the main focus was my addiction to substances and I thought my sex addiction was of less importance which I feel was necessary at that time. Allthough I have made much progress in my life and I have become a better man in the last two years something was still not right. I still felt very lonely and was very frustrated and agitated about a lot of things. Spirituality and meditation has helpt me a lot and still does but I can't seem te get past a certain point where I feel confident with who I am and express myself towards others. I never had any luck with women allthough I have had several relationships but it was never based on trust and healthy sex. Also the last times I had erectile dysfunctions during sex and that's a bummer to say at the least. Yesterday morning it finally came to me and I realized I had to do something about this. Coming "accidentally" across some Youtube vids which talked about porn addiction and the benefits of quitting and I knew for sure, I wanted to get better also. Be happier, be more confident, be free of my last addiction (I gave up smoking and coffee eight months ago... and just start participating in life as a full human being who allows himself to be part of the human race... Finally I ended up here and I have signed up and I am going for a full year! I hope to find some strength and support here and wish you all a better life with NoFap! Already thanks for having me.
