Kind of a unique scenario

Hey everybody,

It's been over a year since I've considered this nofap lifestyle. I have a wonderful girlfriend who I love with all of my heart and want to marry, and although we have a semi successful physical life, I have yet to have sex for an extended time as comfortably as I wish.

The uniqueness to this story is this: I am about to be 26. When I was 21 I was basically a machine sexually, despite any sort of porn consumption etc. My refractory felt nearly instant and I could have sex for well over an hour. Well one night I went too hard in the paint, and suffered a penile fracture....

I could go on forever about the mental shit I've suffered through since then, like fear of permanent damage, afraid of having sex, and all of that, but in the last year I'm not as wigged about that. What I'm suffering through now is that I so shamefully reverted to porn for years because it was the only thing that I could feel success with. Now I'm hopefully on the mend for good.

Currently I can get erections pretty much at will, but a second round is almost a 0% chance, and condoms are sometimes the death of me. I'm just discouraged yall....

Anyway. I went 27 days with only my girlfriend getting me off, and I broke briefly, but I'm back on day 3 and determined to keep going bc I just want to finally have good sex with a girl that I love so much.

Important note: I'm not really concerned with physical damage from my previous injury. Everything looks totally normal and porn, and most times, my gf can get me rock hard.

 

Yeah, I can understand that it wasn't the most clear message either.

I guess I was just venting my story, but also saying that having suffered an injury I also deal with that aspect.

I'm afraid of not being rock hard bc I don't want to risk hurting myself again, and all of that compounds itself and causes more issues for me.

I'm hoping that if i can complete this reboot with my only sexual output being with my gf that I will one day just be able to have worry free sex like I used to.

 

She's incredibly suppprtive and encouraging of the process

 

She's seen my initial post and she's supportive! So that's a bonus