Bit about myself 22 Year Old University Student Music Lover YNWA My Why To become a person that keeps the promises they make to themselves. Backstory My trifles with porn started at twelve. At the time it was nothing more than an alluring curiosity of the forbidden. I tried to stop but I kept going back only to find shame and regret again and again. For 10 years now this pattern has become as familiar to me as the sun rise. Why I am starting this journey. I have not only wasted months if not years of my life, I have wasted countless opportunities in life, I have lost relationships, I have lived under a constant cloud, and as ashamed I as I am to admit it I have even blown $1000s of dollars because of my addiction. Yes $1000s - and no I don't have that kind of money to blow. Although it sucks to admit all this, I have to be honest - I have hit as low as I can go. My addiction has taken me places I never thought I'd be in life. A New Determination I can continue to wallow in the past and feel regret for all that was lost. Or I can create a new story in life that uses the pain of the past to create a story that inspires and liberates. This journey - I know will not be easy, but I'm fighting for my life now and I refuse to lay down. A New Hope I don't want to approach this with bitterness, regret or sadness. I'm looking forward to the challenges. The mountain top moments and well as the fights in the pits. I want to experience life. I am excited fam! Stay blessed. "It's over, It's over, I'm leaving, I'm gone, I've been doing this wrong, I've been here for too long, I'm leaving, I'm leaving, You know I got my reasons..." Now And Forever - Drake
Welcome @ovo.wolf. Your plan to recovery is fantastic. I hope you can stick to it. Good luck to your journey.
