Hi everyone, I decided to make an account and write a post because I'm frustrated of only thinking about changes without doing anything. I'm 22 and I'm afraid of life and I'm tired of endless fighting with addiction. Today I was thinking about suicide again. I'm afraid about saying about my thoughts to anyone, my friends or therapist because I'm so devoted to other's judgment. I want to cry. I feel lost. This is my first day of PMO free, tomorrow I'm going to job so I have to sleep. It was cleansing experience to write this. See you.
Hey pal. I'm 22 too. Same bad situation; been thinking about suicide few times in this period. Don't worry. You're not alone and nobody will judge you here. If you want to talk a little bit in private, we can chat sometimes. Otherwise, if you want an advice, keep a log it helps clearing out your mind and helps focusing on your target. Be strong! And don't worry to share here. I've written few things that I've never told anyone in real life and I can see that there are someone who understands me. My native language is not english, so forgive me for some mistakes.
Thank you guys for many responses and advices, unfortunately I'm going to sleep so I'll make a brief post. An exhausting and stressing week has passed without PMO. I'm touched and I have tears in my eyes. Today was very close to get a relapse. I was postponing my answer here and instead of it I started to browser IG. I used panic button, read an article about bad effects of porn and I restored my common sense for a while. I'm afraid of tomorrow's day. I'm afraid of many other things. See you.
