Last year around this time my now ex-wife left me and took my 3 kids. Now I spend most of my days alone and missing my family. For more than a decade now I have treated emotions that are difficult to deal with PMO. Of course that never works accept for maybe the hour I'm actually acting out. In that hour (sometimes more) I forget about pain in my life. Tonight will be a 7 day no PMO streak. I'm sitting alone in my house and the weather outside is rainy and gloomy. This is the perfect atmosphere to cover up my pain with PMO and honestly I kind of want to.