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The last 14 days have been pretty good. I have managed to keep myself busy and not think too much about porn and sex. But now, just like last time, I feel the rising tide of the urges becoming overwhelming at this stage. I remember it becoming unbearable during my last streak at 50 days.

I can avoid the porn but what's harder for me is avoiding hookup sites and apps like tinder. Before I remember constantly browsing these sites until I eventually relapsed due to a hookup. The chaser effect with porn quickly followed. I think the same night. I'm not too ashamed of the hookup. I'm more ashamed of how much time I wasted on the hookup sites and apps in order to get a hookup. It became so bad that as soon as I open the browser that I would automatically go to the hookup site without even thinking.

Any insights on this and how to fight this urge? I haven't looked at a single hookup site/app for the last 14 days but I am afraid this might change.

I know and practice the usual methods to fight my urges to look at porn. Gym, meditation, cold shower, website blocker, etc... But the urge to find a real woman to have sex with is sooo much harder and it constantly pops up throughout the day. The problem is I waste a lot of time on the search but I have been successful in the past therefore my mind is constantly hungry for that same satisfaction.

 

I've thought about doing this. It would definitely help when not on the computer. I would definitely have to get a dedicated gps unit for the car.

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