I'm loosing all hope for a recovery. Relapsed last night I don't feel the confidence anymore like I did to be honest I really feel done for caring. Life is a shit hole right now. love god and what the holy spirit has done for me and given me. But I feel less respected more then I ever did right now. I'm struggling with being respected by family and friends and I'm not sure what do anymore. I am only respected by the employee's I work with, but out side I feel like I'm not anything.
You never feel good after relapsing. I would reccomend drinking protein shakes or eating steak because it speeds up recovery. Bananas are good too. All you have to do is build another streak and forget the porn. Use this time to build your strategy to keep away from porn on your next streak. You can and will defeat your depression it's only a matter of time.
It can only get better with time as long as you keep breathing, waking up and facing your inner demons. Stay strong. Hard work is not rewarded immidieatly nor does it show directly. In a year or two you will thank yourself, I can say this from experience.
