Im new for starts love the site so far !! Started watching porn around the age 12 before porn I use to rip the pages out of ebony n jet magazines n masturbate to the women around that time I wasnt getting erections so I would just pee on the pictures sad but true I often used objects to get off to pillows anything didn't have a lot of girlfriends around that time the object thing lasted for awhile , while I was still watching porn always straight women only when I went to stores If I seen a woman that was attractive I would sometimes come home and masturbate to the thought of it and her body, as I got older I started actually getting real women still watching porn heavy n having sex with different women sometimes 4 a day at the peak mostly 3 I was very sexually active I call it hypersexuality, it went from there to street walkers I had a lot of street walkers and Backpage escorts ... Here's the turn I seen a transgendered person one night was never into those but I tried it hated myself shame regret I only got a blowjob from her after that event I started transgendered person porn I hated it both straight and transgendered person porn I thought maybe it was just a fetish I ended up having another encounter with two more ts only blowjob I received ... Another ? Am I bisexual or what after that I was 20 years old on the first transgendered person encounter growing up it was always women but I do remember one event and one event only as a kid I touch a boy back side I knew it was wrong n never did it again was very young but I recently had hocd thoughts about the transgendered person I never was attracted to men ever ... I'm starting to ? Myself started mdma couple months ago which I stop was popping pills every other day couple days like 5 in a day which I stop it's been 5 months I was thinking maybe that could be where most anxiety coming from HELP.. Also I have masturbated in my car literally everywhere in the past
you can get better. you are straight man. just stop watching porn and you ll stop attacted to trany. dont give up fight till you die
Thanks bro it's day 3 I'm feeling good no PMO no smoking no drinking all I do now is flirt with women like the old days ... Finding new hobbies like fishing which I love ...
Your issues are the same as for most of us. You shouldn't feel ashamed about them. You should just try to get a handle on your masturbation issues. I've masturbated in cars myself, but you have to be careful about that or you could wind up getting arrested.
Did you ever have HOCD thoughts ? I'm done with it all no more PMO.. those HOCD thoughts scared me to death very depressing ... FAPLESS WARRIOR no turning back
I honestly can't tell you whether my wide interest in porn--including male porn--comes from HODC or from just being bi. I think that is probably true for everyone who masturbates to male porn. The question that you have to ask is why do these thoughts "scare you to death" and why do you find them "very depressing." Is it because, as a straight guy, you are horrified at the thought that you have been lured into desiring something that goes against your real nature (i.e., male sex). Or is it because you actually fear that you are bi and just can't deal with that. That, I think, is the question you have to confront. Believe me, I would love it if I found out that my own issues stemmed from HODC. That would make life so much simpler.
buddy its all good. dont panic. We're together. Open this post https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/whos-on-day-0-just-relapsed.116692/page-4#post-968888
They looked like women bro I don't care for the private I don't look at that bs just that fact I never thought I was bi until a couple months ago in 25 was always straight just started getting bad thoughts on it
