Hi hope you doing well, so the problem is that my SO caught me several times with P on my cellphone and every time it happened I promised her that I wouldn’t do it anymore. Now she has lost all trust on me because she thinks that I don’t care about her feelings, I know that she believes that I lied about the promise and that I only promised her not do it again just to make her feel better so she could stay with me while I continue to watching it behind her back. I can’t recall if at the beginning this was true, but now I feel horrible because she told me that she wants to leave me and I really love her. It really worries me because I always did it again as soon as I feel secure again and with a philosophy of: “if she doesn’t catch me, she won’t be hurt” rather than quit it for good. Now I feel worst than sh#/t an I want to stop watching it for her and to be a better man. I consider myself a porn addict now because of this, because I wanted to stop before but I always fall for the philosophy I mentioned before, how do I explain her that I’m really sorry for lying and to be weak and that I want to change? if she doesn’t believe me anymore. Hope you guys can help me, really need some advice. Thank you so much.
