Male 27 years old, sorry for my english

Since i was a child i was very attracted to girls when i was 12 i started fantasizing about girls for hours a day until one day while i was touching my penis i cum. I started masturbating sometimes several times a day, I was rarely able to get porn videos as I didn't have internet yet, I used mostly the television and every time I fapped I tried not to cum soon to make that excitement last longer. Whenever I saw girls I was super horny and especially in school I always had erect penis fantasizing about my classmates, I have a really confused memory of that, but I was super smart in school. At the age of 15 I started to get tired and anxious but for me at the time it was a normal thing, I started smoking joints and hanging out with bad friends, I had a girlfriend I fucked several times a day, but I continued to masturbate regularly. At the age of 16, from one moment to the next I began to suffer from severe anguish, anxiety, wasting, sweating, mental fog, a psychiatric state so severe that when you leave the house people look at you shocked and compassionate. I won't go into details about drugs, cures and whatnot, but I kept masturbating because I was unaware that that was the problem, and my ups and downs continued for years and years. Living a healthy life, playing sports, eating healthy, whatever I did was useless, I fought like a brave warrior despite the fear, but without success. After 10 years a year ago I learned about NoFap and semen retention, and I started .. I have had several relapses that have been disastrous for my health, especially because my slight well-being gained has given me some money, which I used for alcohol and prostitutes to swallow the pain. But now I'm here, and I'll try to go straight. Thanks for understanding.

 

Thanks a lot bro, I hope to find guys like me who have similiar problems