Hi guys, Don't know if you remember my last post, but here is a fast background. I'm a 24 years old guy who suffers from PIED & DGS. Before starting this NoFap challenge I couldn't have sex at all, nor I could get aroused from any touch from any women. No matter how good she was or beautiful. In my last post, I've mentioned that I was going to test my sexual performance, and how much I've healed. Before continue reading, please beware, I will be talking about some incidents that might be triggering. The journey starts when I was on day 64 day streak. During the whole journey there were 3 girls. Let's call them, girl #1, girl #2 and girl #3. Girl #1 is beautiful, she wasn't a model, but her beauty is completed with the fun personality she has. We met at a bar, we talked, we laughed and we danced. At the end of that night we kissed. Two days later, we meet again. We go her place, but she tells me she has her period, so we can't have sex. But we did everything else. As you would probably guess, she gave me a BJ. And I can't remember myself turned on so much. After few minutes I came. For the first time, I've finished while being with a girl (although it was a BJ). I didn't need to think of any porn scenes or anything else, I just was in the moment. That day I thought I was cured. Days later, I meet Girl #2, this one is super hot, I would have sworn she is a model. We met during the day in the afternoon hours, at a bar. We chatted for 15 mins and then we went to my place. We were ready to do it, but my penis had other plans. It just went flaccid. The amount of disappointment I felt that moment was so huge. The girl thought it was her, and I wasn't man enough to tell her that it's my problem. I really feel sorry for her and for my pathetic body. I keep asking myself, why it had to be this way? Why couldn't I be normal? During the next days, I could sense many girls that I met, want to comeback to my place with me. But I was afraid that the same thing will happen again. So I would leave them with just a kiss. On the other hand, I didn't want to conclude anything from just 1 failure. So I had to try for one more time. And here's where Girl #3 comes into the picture. Girl #3 is a working massage girl. Kind, nice and has a very warm personality. We got the opportunity to talk a lot and share some funny jokes during the session. While having sex, we tried many positions. Some of them worked, others made her feel my problem. But eventually (after like 30 mins), she made me finish. My erection wasn't 100% strong, but I would say it was around 80%. And on occasions I lost my erection totally. If it wasn't for her moves and professional experience, I'm not sure I would have finished. After that incident, I didn't know what to conclude. Or at what stage of the healing process am I. I felt lost, weak and hurt. Two days after, I break my no porn streak and I watch porn and masturbate to it. Nowdays, I got back to my monk program, and now I'm on day #9. This time I will give myself double the time I gave it the first time. The 65 days streak did good to my body, but not enough to heal it. I still don't know what to conclude from the journey above, I mean I felt confident in all 3 incidents. One second I can go hard, the other might be so different. I honestly don't know what I'm going through. Maybe you have a clearer picture of what's happening to my body and mind. I just hope it doesn't last a lot longer. My current solution for next time (after 4 months) is to use medication. I really hoped not to go there, but if it's my only solution then I don't really have another option. Do I.