My brief story

Hi all. I'm grateful this fourm exists. For years I would act out, but I never thought I was addicted. I never thought I could be addicted to anything. It took my therapist to shed light on this for me.
Over the past 2 years or so, I've medicated my current relationship with PMO. Once a day, sometimes twice a day, for a couple of weeks, take a day off then start the cycle again. It's taken a toll on my relationship. I've used it to calm the depressing situation I'm in and being a codependent , this is what I do. I recently came off 11 days of abstinence which i was extremely proud of but some triggers and anger caused me to slip twice this week. I started to see the benefits of abstinence in the days I was sober, relating to women, looking at them as people and not objects. I can see great things when I remain abstinent.

Thanks all , and once again this fourm and website is a gift to me.

 

Thanks. I use whatever I can. Read, I attend meetings, and I tell myself that the addiction is keeping me stuck and keeping me from feeling my true feelings.

I'm open to any other strategies anyone on this fourm may have.