I have relapsed quite a few times since I became active on this sight and want to start a daily journal here. My lack of use for this website was widely attributed to me being uncomfortable with how nofap was showing up when you searched anything. I didn't want my girl to see this website and the specific titles of my activity on here. I want to start small with this week and really keep up with it every day on this website as I go along. I will dissapear saturday night likely and chime in sunday night, when I am usually most prone to relapse. It is usually due to lack of sexual activity spending time with my girl, or amped over if we did. It has always been a horrible way for me to go back into the work week and starts a domino effect throughout the entire week. Not relapsing for just one week past that fateful sunday night will be huge for me.
On day two so far no urges ready to stick this out. It nears a year since I have taken quitting seriously, and It is crazy how you never know how the journey will go. I have learned alot and I am just grateful I am putting myself forward towards something greater for myself and others. I have experienced so much shame and guilt and every other emotion related to what I am going through, and I am ready to make it all count. Every step has counted as well but I am ready to not be a porn user.
Edged a bit today but stopped to go to the gym and clear my mind. I am upset that I have failed already but I will continue to prosper this week
