My Resolution

I was introduced to masturbation when I was in grade 6 and innocent, and every since I have been down that road. Ranging from 2 to 4-5 times a day last few months.

Even though I have managed to achieve almost everything I wanted(at the cost of social isolation) but I have this uncomfortable feeling that I am not living to my potential. Recently, I was working on a research project in AI. Working on that project opened my mind to solving complex problems. And I AM GOING TO SOLVE THIS PROBLEM.

My diagnosis is that I have become workaholic and an addict to fapping because of "psychological emptiness". It's kind of powerful and relief to know that. I think I can't feel more alone in life. I have had girlfriends but all those relationships failed directly or indirectly because of me. Codependency because of psychological emptiness. Now I know "the reason", I don't really care much about dating and happy in myself.

Now, from 4-5 times a day to 0 since a week. I feel much more control over my life and following that I am going to amend more changes in my life that I always wanted because if I can fight my mind and years of this addiction, I CAN DO ANYTHING.

I have given up social media since years. I am going to give up this too. So, I have joined a 90 days nofap challenge. Along with that, I am going to leave every habit I DON'T WANT and build ones I ALWAYS WANTED.

If I am going this way, I am going all in. I am not a slave of my own mind. I had enough. This all changes from now on. I'm going to be a best version of myself each day. So, you slaves. Fight your demons. For every level, there's another devil.