My story is not just about P but more than that

It is said that "Problematic behaviors when discussed, are then felt less after".
My story is not just about P but it's more than that.

It's about Why I'm writing this thread when I'm supposed to study when I've an Exam after 6 days. The dealing is not just with the "urges" but it's also with the psychological fear that has built over in during my past years against Exams.
People say, "Exam fear is a good thing" but what if it crosses it's limits? What if you start escaping from Exams preparations and tune in to porn sites and ultimately fall into vicious cycles of 'regret and restart' ?
The source of my fear comes from a competitive exam, which I wanted to clear some 4-5 years ago. And today, I'm at that level of the tunnel, where I realise that it's just the dark which I'm seeing but good things are there too. Falling into depression after that exam was an obvious thing, But I had the guts to stand up again. Now, it's just the P addiction that is redirecting my mind to think about all those naked bodies.
We all want to have a stable mind to study for our exam.
Success is gradual, it's not an ON or OFF switch. Whether it's about conquering this exam fear or about extending the streak.
I understand that the mind does not want to feel the pain, but wants to rest most of the time while facing the books. It can escape into movies or friends or useless talks or food or sleep, but the real treatment lies into facing what you fear and what's stopping you from getting what you desire.

I can either watch P and forget everything by using 'breaks' as excuses and fall into those vicious cycles again or I can treat myself with my own will power facing the pain of study turning this weakness into a 'strength'.

Wish me luck in whatever the path I choose !