My story (newbie)

Well hello I'm a 28 year old guy from the UK. Over the past few years I have felt increasingly anxious, stressed and depressed. I have seen many doctors over the years as my anxiety and paranoia started at around 15. Nobody has been able to help me. I couldnt describe to doctors how I felt only that most of my life seemed a dream, like I was detached from reality. I would wake up everyday with a headache, back and neck ache, always felt so tired and the past few years I have lost total interest in all my hobbies. My doctor put this down to depression. I discovered NoFap by accident and started reading more about it. Then it dawned on me that my anxiety started at 15.....2001 the same time I got the internet. And discovered porn. I have watched porn every single day without fail and fapped everyday between 1-4 times a day for 13 years solidly. Up to last week as I'm on day 7 with no porn and I feel so frustrated. It seems to make so much sense why my moods have been so irratic. Its become worse over the last 4 years as I got my own place so never get disturbed. Also like many I've read, start on the topless stuff, then lesbian, hard core then full on fetish shit lol. It makes perfect sense as I need more excitement to get the same high. I've noticed a huge intolerance to alcohol....I seem to go from sober to blackout in a very short time. Maybe related? Recently noticed myself refuding sex to knock one out myself. I've always been angry, always sweated heavily, had a swollen coccyx bone, disturbed sleep, achy muscles all over, constipation, black outs when stand up from lying down, unbelievable hangovers, high blood pressure, all from around the age of 16-17. On day 7 no headaches, but mega horny. Keep telling myself its not forever it's a short experiment. Well if anyone feels similar I'd like to hear. Nice one.

 

I've seen therapists for anxiety and panic for years. Never for porn. I'm gonna give it 4 weeks see how I feel. Although I feel positive . reaching orgasm is tiring. So average twice a day for 13 years. No wonder I'm knackered.