Just want to clarify something. I have been exposed to porn when I was 13. I used to Masturbate everyday but once a week I masturbate with porn until I realize its that Porn and Masturbation is harmful. So I stayed avay from porn for almost an year(I wasn't really addicted to it) and had more trouble staying away from masturbation. So I slowly succeeded with M but somehow I slowly failed and somehow porn came back to my life and now it's starting to become an addiction. My question is I am not sure if I am watching porn.(but I do jack off to it now days like 2-3 times every two weeks and it does ruin my perspective of girls). I basically go to YouTube and watch girls that have to go pee really bad or girls that end up pissing their pants and jack off to it.(probably because the first time I Masturbated I didn't knows I M or That semen was what I was ejaculating, I just thought I peed a little, and the feeling was good.) I also piss my pants before I masturbate cause I feel like it's better. Idk. Anyways I need other view points on this. I tried to stop both M and my other wired stuff that I do but i am failing and which is why I am here on NoFap. I have had no crushes on either gender for over an year but I am a bit socially awkward with all girls my age. Comments about what you think about this will be helpful. Thanks.
I think porn really affects our sexual behaviour. For me video P is boring and i am more into audio roleplay or listening to guys jacking off. I think it isnt right. And i dont wanna bring this to my relationship in future. I wanna have a normal healthy meaningful sexual relationship with my partner. And i am scared i cant do that because i am a virgin so i dont know, ive never done that in real and im worried. It affects my social life too. I dont have many guy friends. And always feel insecure when i am around them. I think by stoping PMO will change the way we think about sex , maybe wiser and more natural. But needs a lot of efforts.
Sounds like you have a very strong fetish. Fetishes are hard to disassociate from but not impossible. Maybe focus on getting the P addiction under control and ignore trying to not M for now. I myself struggled to do both at the same time because I was so addicted. But I focused on not watching P as my primary goal and M when I just "needed" to. Good luck
I'm exactly the same with the whole audio thing. I've always listened to audio and never watched video P. I think it can eventually be as harmful as video P.
@Al123 i agree. Audio seems perfectly saved in my mind. The sound is like always playing in my head. Makes it really hard to stop PMO
Thanks for the post. But I am going to have to get rid of both. M makes me feel depressed afterwards, my anxiety rises, I feel immature, can't focus or pay attention to things much. Less happy, less social, less motivation to do stuff. I am losing my friends and my passions now and I want to have a good life in the future. To sum it up. I just HATE the feeling masturbation gives me and I don't even want to feel the agony of the next few days if I relapsed again. So I am going to try to get rid of both at the same time. Any ideas. Should I block YouTube on my phone?
Thanks, I thought I was one of the few people who don't watch actual porn but is as harmful as actual porn. Thanks for the comment
Good luck but consider that it's not the M that is making you feel this way, it's the fact you M to P. When I used to M to P I would feel bad afterwards, now I M occasionally not with P and it feels natural and I'm not left feeling bad about anything afterward. But give quitting both a try I hope it goes well dude.
I respectfully disagree with this point, but acknowledge that this is your personal experience. In contrast my personal experience leads to a different conclusion. I had a chronic masturbation addiction for 30 years before I saw porn for the first time and I felt as Harry now feels (in his own words): Although porn is more harmful, I would attest to the fact that masturbation can be very harmful, even in isolation. @Harry Maclad, I totally get where you are coming from. I have given up both together and I have made it work. You can too!
I guess we're all different...still I think it's good to at least try all methods of recovery...after all it's can only get better as we already hit rock bottom coming here
