Need some help re: dreams

Been over two months now since I stopped and for the main it's been OK. After the initial burst I have had a long period of flatlining. I am glad to say, P isn't much on my mind at present. After it loses its 'freshness' in the mind it gets filed away to the back of the mind.

Recently I have been struggling with thoughts and dreams. I am in a long-term relationship, but with the thoughts of P harder to muster up (and being less stimulating) I have more thoughts of other real women.

In the past couple of nights I have been having real vivid dreams, not really about sex but just attractive women in general. So much so that when I have woken one time I was convinced I had a wet dream (but I didn't). The other time, the urge to release an O was so compelling, like the bullet was in the gun, so to speak and I simply could M for about 10 seconds and it would be done.

Trying to think about these feelings, it is not particularly that I want another woman but to get to the point where I could, if that makes sense. Putting in all the work into the chase to know that I could. A bit like a fisherman spending all day fishing to catch a massive fish, only to put it back in the water once he has caught it.

Wondering if anyone has any good advice, I need to get back onto the path.