Hello everyone. just want to introduce myself to the community. I started looking at porn and PMO way back at the age of about 14 or 15. I am 54 now so that probably makes me the longest documented fapper in the community. It started naturally as I learned about sex and masturbation but then, somewhere along the way, it got totally out of control and I found myself enjoying porn at least as much as real sex. I also found myself fantasizing about women that I saw throughout the day, at work, and even my girlfriends while I was not with them. When I did have a new girl friend, I found myself becoming quickly disinterested in real sexand more interesting in fantasizing about them and images of them or I would need to do more and more kinky stuff in order to keep it interesting. Then I got married. We tried having children and because we were both older it was hard. I didn't help the situation at all because I never stopped fapping throughout the process despite the fact that i knew it was probably keeping us from having children. Ultimately, we ended up doing invitro and I feel that I was probably much of the problem. As I look back, I can now see how this addiction has affected every aspect of my life from relationships, education, work, business, employment. I have 3 beautiful children and a beautiful wife. I can see that I am spending way too much time in my digital fantasies and away from them. I haven't had sex with my wife for a year almost and, before that, there was a very long dry stretch as well. However, I find myself fapping at least a couple of times a day. I went from the playboy and penthouse magazines of old, to porn pictures on the Web. As bandwidth increased and content became more available, I began watching more and more porn videos on the web. Currently, my addiction is web camming and video chat. I find this very fullfilling because i think that i'm dealing with even more than just a prolonged and protracted PMO addiction. At this point in my life, I believe I am also suffering from a mid-life crises and really enjoy speaking to and fantasizing about younger beautiful women. I feel like such a perv though because most of these women are at least half my age. AT 54, it is really really important for me to kill this addiction. I have to build a business, stay employed, be there for my wife and children, and become the person that I know I am. I need my life back and to make the best out of what is remaining. I'm in it to win it! Very thankful for this forum and the support and community.