New here- HOCD- porn addiction or erp?

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Hmuc, Aug 7, 2020.

  1. Hmuc

    Hmuc Fapstronaut

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    Hey guys This is my first post on here and just looking for some advice.

    A bit of background about me is that Im 20 and have watched porn since I was like a 11 and watched it a lot up until I was 18. Like 3-4 times a day sometimes more. As it progressed I got on to some pretty weird shit including trans and pegging. Once I stumbled upon gay porn but I didn’t like it and turned it off pretty much straight away. Anyway once finished to those things afterwards I would be disgusted but wouldn’t rlly pay it any more thought after that. I knew I was straight as I had always like girls and never thought of boys like that.

    Then I started working and my porn use went down to like 3 days a week as I was v busy and I went back to more just straight porn nothing weird. I also got a girlfriend and had great sex and was all good. Just before covid we broke up and then being at home for the last 4 months I Started watching porn again 3-5 times a day. About 3 weeks ago i had already jerked off 5 times that day but I did again but this time to pegging porn.i then got rlly scared and started to think oh no what if I’m turning gay. And I haven’t been able to get it out of my head since. And now every guy I see I feel as though I’m checking them out and wanting to be with them. And I hate it. I rlly think it’s hocd and I’m not gay Cos I’ve never wanted a guy before. But would stopping porn help me get over this or should I do exposure therapy?

    Any help would be amazing and sorry for the long post
     
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  2. Hey @Hmuc,

    You are not alone in this. It's a very hard situation to be dealing with but their is a lot of advice out there on the forum if you search for it and we are here to support you on your journey.

    Here's my favourite quote on this topic.

     
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  3. Hmuc

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    Thanks a lot! I am trying to get away from the thoughts and started NoFap yesterday. I know it might be a placebo affect but I feel better already and getting disctrqcted by other things . So hopefully I can get over this soon
     
  4. Supination

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  5. Hmuc

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    Thanks mate! Currently still isolating so might look into an online therapist. Deffo gonna keep away from porn
     
  6. Hello there... :)
    Welcome to the community! :)
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