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Hi there, i am a 21 year old student trying to find something meaningful in life. Started to realise that ive been addicted to porn for a long time now, started as a curiosity but then it stuck with me since 8th grade. I am a person who no one would ever even think watches porn, but then it only makes me not me and somehow it feel not right and telling them that i io watch porn only makes them laugh in short make fun of me thinking i am lying to them for the sake of conversation, so i eventually stopped and pretended to be what everyone thought of me but this now isnt feeling right for a long time and ive tried to stop but havent have able, but i i real to want to quit this thing have proper life. Sorry for long post but wanted to vent out somewhere. I have max of 12 day streak becuase of some really sad animes i saw but other than that ive not been able to cross 2 day streak. I just did that too, but realised something had to be done so came here.
The goal is harm mode for 90 days. Along my way i will make a proper study schedule and do other useful fun stuff too.

 

Thanks alot. Lets do our best.