New to this whole things, Trying out a Reboot

Hi, I've been struggling with death grip for as long as I can remember.
I remember when I lost my virginity I lasted 45 minutes, and my girlfriend at the time was just amazed, and confused.
Then many girls over the years have gotten either insecure or mad at me for not finishing. Doubting themselves, doubting that I'm enjoying myself.
Other times the girl will just get too sore to continue, Or I will get too tired to try and finish. I have had to fake orgasms with partners in the past, because I know it will just take too long. But I didn't know the reason back then.

So, I read the whole Reboot blog, and it just made sense to me. Everything just made sense to me... (I mean, not the porn being better than sex thing, I still love sex way more than watching porn. Either way if I masturbate or if I'm enjoying another person it's going to take way longer than it should.)

Which made me think, OK, I'mma do this. Lets do this thing, I will start Friday.
So then I was gonna do some last hurrah shit, Wednesday Night, and ended up binging for 4 hours, and I mean really binging, into some of the really weird shit I've fallen into, on both screens of my computer.
Alas, 4 hours go by, and both my arms hurt from trying, unable to get to completion due to death grip, and becoming desensitized, and right then and there, I'm just like... yeah I'm not waiting until Friday, I'm gonna start right now. Wednesday 3AM.

I decided to do the No Porn, NoFap, Reboot.
(Then again, I haven't had sex in just under a year, due to confidence and anxiety issues that seem to have developed over the pandemic)
My Goal right now is 1 month NoFap, 3 months no porn,

• If I make it 1 month with NoFap, I'll do another month, up to 3.
  • I will probably go back to masturbation in the future, but I would like to stop watching porn compulsively.
• And if I make it that far with no porn, I'm going to try and just not watch porn anymore.

From there, I've been "Good" I think.
Focused on work Thursday, then played some games.
At night I went to bed early, but laying in bed images kept appearing in my head, I ignored them, but that lasted for about 15 minutes before I drifted off to sleep.
This morning, I woke up, with morning wood, and my balls were a little bit sore, but I ignored it, and now its Friday.
And I'm a little bit worried about the weekend, since I have nothing to focus my mind on,
Going to try and just dive into a video game or maybe binge watch some anime, and avoid thinking about it.

Anyhow, I didn't mean to write this much, it was more supposed to be an introduction, So Hi.