Hello, I've finally made the decision to join this community and get a handle on my porn addiction. Been a long time coming. Long time. My threshold event? I've finally realized that I will NEVER live the life I want...so long as porn is there. And I'm running out of runway. No doubt my story is similar to many others. But here's a little background. I'm 54 years old. Been married for 32 years to the same woman. Three grown children. No grandchildren. And I've been stuck in the PMO cycle nearly daily for a long time. I won't go into details...but like many, I started using PMO as a way to deal with emotional pain when I was a kid. I've never cheated on my wife. But sex has always been a bit of a sore spot in our relationship. Mostly from my unrealistic expectations, desires, and fantasies. Now, I'm going to join this community and see if I can finally break this destructive habit. Anyway, it's nice to know I'm not alone in this. I've been so afraid of being found out for so long it's eaten away at my ability to feel anything but anxious, fearful and frustrated. Here's to day 1.