Newbie Day 1 Journal

Hey everyone!

I'm Jake and I am new to the community. Let me tell you guys a little bit about myself. I am an 18 year old young Christian man and I want to get rid of my addiction. I have been masturbating ever since I was about 10 or 11. I don't look up any of the hard core stuff, but I have always been intrigued in the more passionate amateur things. Regardless, it is still a problem that I want to fix in my life. It has affected my relationship with God, how I view women, and my overall confidence. I have never had a girlfriend, and I really want one. For the longest time, I have always prayed that the Lord would provide for me the best wife in the world for me, but I know the Lord is telling me that I need to stop this addiction. I am willing to do anything to provide restoration with my relationship with the Lord. Please, if there is any accountability partner who is willing to take me under their mentor-ship, I would be more than happy. Some day, I want to be able to help others, but I know that I have to help myself in this in order for me to help others. I know that there are many Christians who have struggled with this. I know that I will rise, and fall, but I know that one day I will overcome this addiction completely through the power of Jesus Christ. But please, if there is anyone out there to take me under their wing who has conquered this addiction I would be more than happy to take that opportunity. Thank you!

Sincerely,
Jake

 

Thanks everyone for the great advice and for the warm welcoming! I am happy to say day 1 is complete! I know I have a long journey ahead of myself, and I will make sure I keep you guys posted.

 

One thing I would like to ask is that I usually get cravings in the mornings and when I am tired in general. Any advice from you guys where I can stop these cravings or anything I should do to distract myself from these cravings?

 

Day 2 complete! Thanks everyone for all of your support. Watching nofap motivation videos and listening to Terry Crews about his journey. Thank you all we're all in this together!

 

Hey guys!
Day three is almost finished. But can you guys please pray for me? I am experiencing major withdraws right now and I need prayer for school right now. I honestly feel a bit inadequate right now. What I am afraid of most is failing and not finishing off strong. What's also making me depressed is actually fighting this and not feeling like I got anything done if that makes sense. I am spending a lot of time looking up motivational nofap videos, but I feel like I am not getting anything done because I am spending a lot of time fighting temptation over doing my homework. It may just be withdraws, but I could use some prayer as I go through finals. I know my fears of failing seem kind of exaggerated, but I feel like if I don't do well, I'll head into a state of depression and more depression will lead to relapse is what I am afraid of. My career is on the line, I HAVE to do well in my classes and finish off strong. Please pray for me as I head to one of the toughest days, weeks, and months, staying committed to nofap. Thank you!

 

Hey guys, sorry I didn't update you guys. Yesterday went fine. I was edging a little bit this afternoon because I felt the urge but I didn't go all the way through. Please continue to pray for me and keep each other accountable thanks!