No going back.

Hello to all the Fapstronauts,

i'm a 25 years old men, who since months read posts in this forum and tonight decided to be a part of it.
My story: I was always a tech guy and at the age of 13/14 i already started to PMO. I know maybe for the young ones here that age is a normal case, cause today finding that hard porn its very easy than 10 years ago. Today i think that was the reason that changed my entire youth. Guys my age done sport activities, had girlfriends, found jobs, had many friends and i was there in my bed masturbating almost everyday. With 19/20 happened a miracle and i found a nice job and after that many things changed, i got extremly popular, had every week a new girl and many and at that moment i started to see the negative effects of PMO. I was't able to have a fully errection with them and i always think its just because of alcohol. I got small relationships (max. 1 month) with many girls but they all gone cause i was a real asshole and don't interesseted in relationships (maybe a insecurity of me, cause deep in me i liked some of them really bad) and always a girl left me i got angry in me and that was the energy that bring me to tv shows, i find a better job, lose about 30 kg.
Then i started a company and don't had much time to go out and find new girls who can give me back tha anger that i can use for my work and cause i'm a little bit mature i started to work on me and then i found the book Think and grow rich from Napoleon Hill where he write about the transmutation of sex energy, i started to no pmo but without success, so let it be. After a longtime i found on youtube something about NoFap and give it a second try. I relapsed after 13 days but this time i see the effects of no pmo. The classic ones: Voice change, extrem clear mind, woman/people notice you more and with smile, much energy that i used to connect again with my family, friends etc. normally i think a lot about power, money, business and in these 13 days i was a another man, i respected the people, relaxed like i was before i started to pmo in my youth. Unfortunately i relapsed and tried many times after to do 90 days but after 1-4 days i give up. Now this is the last try and i know i will do it (i said that yesterday to me too), i know i have just one life and i don't want to be slave of some videos in internet. Please give me your hardest advices how i can not be triggered or have a controll over that energy. Cause i know how i am, or i do it in the hard way or i will never do it. I will update if theres interesst from other fapstronauts, Thanks to all meanwhile!

 

Thanks a lot!

 

Thank you mate helps a lot