Every few weeks/months I have the opportunity to have sex, and sometimes I take the opportunity so i can say to myself I can be "normal" but it feels wrong. Most of the time I just say no though. I mean I am able to have sex, but I am zero horny, its purely mechanical and even the O is bullshit. It seems like my brain is completely conditioned to P, even though I watch it like once a month. Is it too late for me? Would completely no P change something? I started very young, I think thats part of the problem
It sounds like ur really desensitized. U would need to stop for some time , reboot prob more than most people here. Make sure hormonally ur healthy and find a healthy relationship. No random flings. Cuz it sounds like ur opportunities are with randoms u dont feel much for. Porn will ofc seem like the safer and more reliable choice if so . Ofc no porn or masturbation would change things. The sooner the better. If u wait too long then u will have a serious problem. Sounds like ur at 90% there but u can roll back.
