I was lonely in life, suffering from an Onlyfans addiction, hooked to porn, feeling miserable, hopeless and depressed when the pandemic started. We all started working from home. One day I was working with a colleague online (I also consider him a friend) when his wife came into the room, and out of nowhere he introduced us. She came and said hi to me on camera. I looked at that woman once and my life changed forever! I developed an instant attraction, leading to an obsession, and as of now the obsession has grown into utter madness. I stalked her online. Found pics. Now I spend my nights fapping to her giant poster with porn running in the background. I am utterly disgusted with myself! How did I become so sick! If she ever found out se will think I am some sort of psycho!!! I have tried dating since, seriously tried, but no luck. Couldnt even make my move with the first woman, with the second one tried but suffered ED. No other woman compares to her. I have met her in person now. She is pretty. Polite and friendly. I want so much to... My rituals continue, I can't sleep unless I fap to her at night. I am disgusted with myself. Feel like I am in a strange hell. Will this ever end.
This is not good because further every shit it is causing to your life, you are also cheating your colleague
