OK...let's give this thing a try.

So here's my intro. I am definitely one of the more "aggressive" PMO addicts. My journey started at the tender age of 12. I was viewing hardcore content before I turned 13. I was making favorite porn star lists organized by ethnicity around 19. I could name all the companies and membership sites. No telling how much money I've blown every paycheck just to satisfy that "fix". I'm 31 now. I've went from viewing hardcore to extreme porn. CBT, golden showers, scat, vomit. After a while I could no longer view with disgust. I'd be turned on by it. transwoman's, Cross-dressers, humiliation videos, forced-bi and bi-sex. I was beginning to think I was turning bi- or gay. I've even acted out the dark fantasies I was having on several occasions. I've masturbated in public more times than I can remember and nearly arrested twice. I even jerked off in a classroom with plenty of classmates surrounding me. I've been risky like that for years and years. Earlier I said that I am the aggressive addict. I've been married and now divorced. My addiction ruined that marriage. If I was caught trying to sneak out of bed in the middle of the night to go and jerk off, I'd be the one getting pissed. I've screamed and cursed her out. I've even put hands on her. I never thought I'd cross THAT line, yet I did. That marriage was doomed from jump street. I have a girl now who's been as supportive as she can be and even she has left me more than once. She is actually the one I want to spend the rest of my days with. I've calmed down tremendously over the years but my addiction hasn't. Only worsened. The last I confessed to masturbating, my girl was stone cold. Mean. I broke into tears from the things she said. Now I know how the women in my life who've endured the aftermath of my PMO addiction felt. What goes around comes around right? I discovered nofap from a youtube video she sent me. I decided to check it out and researched everything. I was immediately interested. It sounded like something completely new to me. I've tried paid memberships such as candeocan and overcomepornography.com and I wasn't sold. With NoFap, I see the support system and the success stories. I want to be a success story. Not a failure. It's been too long and I'm finally ready to drop the BS! I'm currently going through a porn induced ED and delayed orgasm. Not once have I orgasmed from intercourse with my girl because of how often I masturbate. I've been masturbating between 5 and 7 times every damn day. At times I wouldn't even allow myself to recover before I followed up with another "session" and ejaculated again. I've been absolutely crazy with it and it's gotta stop. I want to be happy. I know I don't need porn to have that. I have re-formatted all of my hard rives and deleted all of my paid porn memberships for the millionth time, and installed the aobo porn blocker program on my laptop. I created a complicated password and flushed it down the toilet. Now there's always ways around that, don't get me wrong, but this way it makes it difficult and time consuming. I'm on 4 days and 12 hrs sober I think. I want it to be forever but I'm starting small. 7 days without PMO at a time. Fapstronauts, I can use your advice. I'm not doing this on hard mode becuase if I do, my girl will leave me for lack of sex. The problem is I get frustrated when I don't cum. Anything other than cold showers to help me through? I need all the advice I can get because I have been an extreme PMO addict without a break for 20 years. H-E-L-P!