Porn and Sexuality ? Ocd... Hocd...Anxiety

Im new for starts love the site so far !! Started watching porn around the age 12 before porn I use to rip the pages out of ebony n jet magazines n masturbate to the women around that time I wasnt getting erections so I would just pee on the pictures sad but true I often used objects to get off to pillows anything didn't have a lot of girlfriends around that time the object thing lasted for awhile , while I was still watching porn always straight women only when I went to stores If I seen a woman that was attractive I would sometimes come home and masturbate to the thought of it and her body, as I got older I started actually getting real women still watching porn heavy n having sex with different women sometimes 4 a day at the peak mostly 3 I was very sexually active I call it hypersexuality, it went from there to street walkers I had a lot of street walkers and Backpage escorts ... Here's the turn I seen a transgendered person one night was never into those but I tried it hated myself shame regret I only got a blowjob from her after that event I started transgendered person porn I hated it both straight and transgendered person porn I thought maybe it was just a fetish I ended up having another encounter with two more ts only blowjob I received ... Another ? Am I bisexual or what after that I was 20 years old on the first transgendered person encounter growing up it was always women but I do remember one event and one event only as a kid I touch a boy back side I knew it was wrong n never did it again was very young but I recently had hocd thoughts about the transgendered person I never was attracted to men ever ... I'm starting to ? Myself started mdma couple months ago which I stop was popping pills every other day couple days like 5 in a day which I stop it's been 5 months I was thinking maybe that could be where most anxiety coming from HELP..

 

Read about dopamine and porn my friend and you understand many things adout addiction. Our brain want dopamine and after so many years start boring only women and don't give you much dopamine , trans is something new and this gives you mery much dopamine. If you continue with trans many times , brain will want something new and it was gays this is the line . Good luck.