Porn is the only problem

Man, I actually am an old user, not too old.

I remember of joining this website in September of this year, and the reason I joined this site was to get rid of severe PMO problem. I joined in beginning of September and even after that I could see that nothing was working for me. Like, for example :- I remember watching porn in the middle of writing a thread on this website.
It is so crazy, because most of the time, when I'm surfing on the internet, it starts with watching porn, after that I waste whole amount of time in searching for the best porn that could conclude in MO.
It happens all the time.
So, I remember of last time when I PMO in September was in the end of the month i.e., 25 or maybe 26th of September. On that date after performing PMO, I remember of watching a video on YouTube :-


I don't know what it did to me, I changed.
For God's sake I didn't watch porn, neither MO for one month.
I was having good time and was becoming confident about myself. But, after one month I had the urge, not a very stronger one, but I gave it a try. The urge was not at all in the organs, but in the brain. If I would have controlled it at that time, it could have been my victory because when you get the urge to MO it's through the sexual organs, but when you have urge to watch porn, it's through brain. God, I don't know what happened to my fingers that i typed this web address of a porn site where I watched a very intense porn that led to MO. I still remember that day, it was one month 10 days back, after which I started having the same problem.
Present day :-
All I want to say is that, "You are always little close to victory, until you give up and fail like me. Whenever i think about the relapse period that I had, it suprises me of the fact that I could have achieved my goal if I could have pushed myself a little further till forever."
From today on I'm going to start my relapse again till forever. I am also thinking of writing this daily so that I'm always motivated to achieve what I want in my life."