It's been a long time, ago since I first noticed how internet pornography was destroying my life; Those cheap thrills, and easy escapes. I started the battle to stop it... It wasn't easy, and I have come from an almost daily masturbation, to now once every 15 days, now I plan to take it much further a full year without pornography masturbation. It still isn't easy; and I know I'll have to make a couple of hard-choices going forward. I watch a website called adult friend finder, after this post I'll have deactivate my account, stop emails received from them and change the password into something I won't remember. Practically it was a bad idea from the start and I'm more willing to get rid of it now. Another thing I started to do, is to get photos online from social sites, and use Photoshop, to sexualize the photos, and masturbate to them, while I've dropped the frequency I still am doing it, so I'll have to reduce it. Since starting a relationship, I've cut down on pornography use significantly, and focus more on the relationship, my battle started before the relationship, but its has been a significant damper to my addiction and porn use. So after this post I'll go head and kill the AFF account, delete emails that link back to it; and type a random password and copy paste it in the password change box. I feel I can go 365 days without pornography masturbation or edging; its going to be tough, but I think its going to be worthwhile. My biggest worry is I'll become too dependent on my woman/women for sexual satisfaction; something inside of me is against dependency.
And I've revoked my access to AFF, there's no way I can re-enter that site again, with full-membership.
