Pushing through this inner hell

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Dax Xenos, Nov 20, 2015.

  1. Dax Xenos

    Dax Xenos Fapstronaut

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    Greetings,
    I'm a month in, no PMO in that whole time. I found that this whole rewiring and rebooting is a real under taking. I've been forced to examine many inner things. I have always been a loner and shy esp. around women. I found that porn made me feel less alone, and filled a void. Whenever I felt rejected or like a failure PMO put me at ease. Recently I started to evaluate my life and myself and after realizing that PMO was a major spiritual & physical energy drain. I found this site when doing some research about overcoming porn. I had a really rough day today. I went to work instead of working from home and I really felt on edge. I was really on edge and I thought about seeking the service of an escort when I left work. I even called and spoke to one that I found on BP. Even though I have been with an escort a few times in the past, I decided that I don't want to be that guy.
    It was one problem after another today at work and I felt like I wanted to jump out of my skin. I remembered this site pulled it up on my phone and read a few stories and some advice. I manged to get calm and thought about why I was doing this. I want to be emotionally healthy and whole. I do have a few questions that maybe you all can help me with:
    1. Is it normal that your thoughts seem to betray and be against you, I.E. "You are doing so good on giving up porn, why not treat yourself to an escort or that upscale strip club you thought about going to."
    2. This summer I started hitting the gym at least three times a week, now that I'm trying to rewire and reboot, should I start doing a more intense workout program to help center me?
    3. I joined a few dating sites, but have not completed my profiles. Should I wait before getting in the whole internet dating scene while I am working on this inner journey?
    Thanks in advance and thank you all for being brave enough to tell your stories and offer help.
     
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  2. alone_boy

    alone_boy Fapstronaut

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    Bro, I suggest you to start your own journal, sharing everyday experiences through the journal, you'll feel much better and helps us too.

    we you're newbie like me, its good to roam around the forum, read some other posts. and don't forget to read your first message got from nofap which in your message box. You've more self control, good luck
     
  3. Dax Xenos

    Dax Xenos Fapstronaut

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    Thank you, I feel better in knowing I'm not alone in this.
     
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