rebooting and faltering

I did three weeks, but now I'm having to start over. It sucks, it's like, your sex drive starts to come back and then it's harder.

I began looking at porn before I was able to ejaculate. I never thought I was addicted because I didn't look at it or masturbate that often . . . Once every other day to once a day. Seemed reasonable. But I had trouble getting and keeping it up during sex. And I didn't know what was wrong with me.

I'm not sure how I'll get through the 2-3 months. I've never had to overcome an addiction before. But just the three weeks I've done have been a noticeable change.

 

I am not having any real sexual exchanges. I am flirting with someone, not sure if it's helpful or detrimental.

What is your long term goal doc?

 

thanks kodec