Relapse averted.

Just experienced a strong urge to PMO. Last week, i filled an application form and payment was successful but now when I checked it's status, it says no payment made. In moments stress and anxiety kicked in with them urges to PMO to relieve the stress. I locked my room's door and switched on my laptop. I have two P blockers on my laptop. I could get through first but, second one proved quite resilient to bypass. In that moment, I was ready to give up all promises I made to myself yesterday to fight this menace. But, soon the urges subsided and I didn't PMO. It's like a whole different person in me who refuses to listen to any logic in such situations. This relapse has been averted.