Relapsed after 27 days

At my second attempt for NoFap, I managed to resist 27 days, beating my all-time record of three weeks. On the 28th day I relapsed two times. This morning (around 3am), when I arrived at home drunk, I relapsed again. I thought I had it under control, but I was wrong.

Now, the point of this topic is to emphasize on a golden rule: No form of arousing and no triggers should be allowed. I cannot bold that enough and I learned from my own experience. The hard way. I realized that after I allowed myself some wet dreams and to get aroused in these weeks. I'm putting an end to anything that might arouse me and to any trigger of any kind, that will eventually lead to porn.

I'm a little disappointed about myself, I have to admit. Yet proud to have break my record and now I'm heading towards breaking my 27th day milestone and eventually put an end to this filthy habit. It's crystal clear that I have a problem.

With that being said, do not let yourself get aroused. Don't search for triggers. If you find anything that even remotely arouses you, simply stop. Say no. Swipe away. Close the tab. Find something quick to do. I thought I was powerful enough to defy porn and fight against the constant urges, but it seems that it is too early for that. That day will come - I'll keep fighting and will win someday!

I made this topic, because I felt the need to share my experience and maybe someone can learn from it. I was actually excited about posting my first successful month, but it seems that it didn't work out that way. I am confident that it will someday.

Keep fighting and pushing - we all can do this.

 

Thanks for @ezmon for your words. I really wanted to get this out of my chest and I don't feel too disappointed - I'm still proud of my so-far achievement. I am trying to learn from the relapses and these mistakes and I would like for others to feel the same way.

 

Yup. My progress was.

1st attempt - 3 days
2nd attempt - 27 days
3rd attempt - 4 days

Now I'm back on track with my fourth attempt. I really wanna do this, but I barely fought lately and that's why the relapses arrived. I'm done with that. I wanna break down my record and settle a new one.