searching for an alternative

My addiction is pretty bad, but I guess thats subjective to each person. There have been nights and days where I'd do nothing else. It was one go after another. Its affected me in every way and not in any positive way either.

For me I've likened it to smoking, which I've struggled quitting on and off for almost two decades. It always started with the thought of it, then the craving immediately hit. Ive tried alternative like ecigarettes but always went back to old fashioned smoking. No matter how bad it made me feel the craving always won, time and time again.

For the past few months however I havent had a single cigarette, or ecigarette for that matter for the first time in decqdes. The answer? Nicotine gum. Now I laugh at the thought of smoking and I've steadily craved nicotine less and less. I no longer have the desire to bum one when everyone around me is smoking and just seeing others smoke reminds me how good it feels not to. Such a simple and powerful alternative that has literally saved my life!

It makes me think, there must be a "gum" for porn addiction. If only it were that easy to pop a piece of gum every time I get a craving. But I get the feeling it may not be that easy. The desired chemical is the same but the nature of the craving is a different animal.

At the very least, there are tools, alternatives, and people who want to help. There is a path to happiness. It may not be as easy quitting smoking, but there is a way and I will find it.

So here I am...