Shemale Porn addiction

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by VeryUnderstanding, Feb 29, 2016.

  1. VeryUnderstanding

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    Hey all so when i was 14 i was flicking through pornsites and seen the title shemale blah blah blah clicked it and was so aroused i clicked on a few shemale on shemale after that but didnt feel right but i enjoy watching a shemale and a girl get it on !

    I also before that stuck my finger in my butt for a while and then i started with this obsessed thought that i was gay !

    Ive been thinking that ive been gay for almost 7 years and the anxiety brings out arousal....towards man

    If i was to have a man and women infront of me and had the optoon to have sex with one i would most definitely pick the women

    I started fapping alot to prove that i was still straight and just because i liked PMO.

    I always would watch lesbians loved it so much. Now i cant even see a girl on the street and get aroused....

    If i never clicked that porn video i dont think i woild have ever stumbled onto there i havnt stumbled into gay porn because i dont want too watch 2 man having sex i have skipped through it tho not masturbating and didnt feel it so i exited page and then tested if i would watch a shemale and a girl would i feel it and boy did i feel it... instant erection

    Not sure whats happening to me lately or for the past 7 years after constantly m"ing for 7 years.. more then 5 times a day... but im 12 days in to my PM reboot
     
  2. dubceived

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    I might be able to shed some insight onto this,

    But to explain the arousal for Shemales and traps, there are a few mindsets.

    Firstly, lets say you started out just watching porn, between a man and a woman, you
    do this for a while, Your get used to seeing a penis in intercourse. After all it is normal.
    This moves on to a shemale or trap, someone who convincingly a "Woman"
    But with one extra part (Penis). You natural body response is to find
    it attractive because it looks like a woman,
    But your subconscious at this point because of porn, is so used to seeing a penis as a part of intercourse,
    it becomes more (not entirely) a necessity to see one to get aroused.

    Because at this point you brain goes. Penis = Sex, Sex = Good.
    Then rewrites your sexual attraction to need to see a penis to become aroused.

    Im just going to guess at this point, That the Men that you have possibly been aroused to at this point, have posses feminine qualities. Long hair, soft looking skin, etc (you get the idea)
    rather then a masculine male.

    This does not mean that you are gay.

    If this is the case, then i believe that you have been conditioned over time, to find arousal like this.

    IF you want to go back to feeling normal again, i do have some tips.

    1. Quit porn.
    Its not helping your case, its only making things worse.
    2. Exercise daily/ Eat healthy

    And number 3.
    Do more masculine activities, As weird as it sounds
    the more "Manly" you become the less you will desire Traps and Shemales.
    Hang out with you male friends more, and less with your female friends.

    It works, i speak from some level of experience.

    You are not alone in this, You are not abnormal.
    You can get through this.

    I would be happy to help in any way i can.
     
  3. Rav70

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    What you are feeling is surprisingly becoming more common. There are many people with gender identity issues due to hardcore porn.
    Your mind thinks if I can get off to this then surely I'm gay?! That is not the case.
    My boyfriend struggled hard two years before we met and still had issues after we started dating.
    It wasn't until he quit porn and ANY masterbation that he stopped having issues with his sexual identify and his pied.
    Check out this link
    https://www.psychologytoday.com/blo...e/201412/is-your-man-gay-straight-or-bisexual

    He has suffered so much from his PMO addiction. His anxiety and depression was off the charts. Please stop watching that shit you are poisoning your mind.
    He's 90 days no PMO and we have an amazing sex life now and we are BOTH much happier and healthier.
     
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    Your brain on porn has some great articles on porn induced fetishes also. I suggest you read them.
     
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    Too often we're encouraged to focus on the question "Should I feel bad about my fetish?" (Answer: No, but that doesn't mean you're wise to continue training your sexual response to it.) The better question to ask is "What is my true sexual nature?"

    There is only one way to attempt to find out. Give up porn and porn fantasies related to your fetish. You have to stop reinforcing it with orgasm if you want it to change. Many have reversed this conditioning, but none have done so while still using fantasy to reinforce the reward.

    Saw this on yourbrainonporn.
     
  6. I had the same thing. Neven was into shemales, but after years of porn, I enjoyed looking at shemales. I am 100% sure I am not gay, never had any sexual feeling towards men, but the thing is the dick is what we are used to seeing so often. After a week or so of no pmo in the past I would never go straight to shemale porn, but to women, and almost always to lesbians, becasue I wasn't interested in seeing a dick, but after pmoing for a couple of weeks, I would get back to normal porn, then even a shemales again. It was a constant spiral. Im close to day 40 and the sexual or erotical thoughts are completely free of any images of dicks :D all that is arausing is womans body, and not neceserily naked.

    Only if you quit porn, you will see your true taste in erotica normalise
     
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  7. VeryUnderstanding

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    Hi rav nice posts i read into that post its good for people without a porn addiction but porn addiction has twised my mind abit like the walks on the beach and stuff i notice man and women but the man in a non sexual way eg if he was aesthetic id be like what a sick body or tattoos id be like mad tattoos as i have both tattoos and a good body as i trained at the gym for some time years even but wouldnt look at them and think mmm yeah would like to take them home kinda thing but the women in a very sexual way stare up and down a pretty good stare too ! But porn addiction has made me recently aroused but still in a non sexual way? i think because of the anxiety it gives me ever since i can remember i have been into women and crushed on them and just first time experience when i was young would give me megga butterflies and serious erections.. thannkyou for your help tho it helped me
     
  8. VeryUnderstanding

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    Each to there own i do not judge you in anyway that's what you have developed and your okay with it, dont worry about anything or anyone else! But me on the otherhand have no desire to try it out or anything like that ! Im strung up on the shemale porn which makes me think im gay pretty much and that it arouses me i dont even remember the day i first seen it but after a while i didn't have any guilt towards masturbating to it... im pretty sure the first time i had guilt like why am i doing this this isent right all i knew that it looked like a women and i didn't even think about what is was before that i kinda knew they were man i heard stories but to me i still saw a women and didnt see it as an ex man i quit watching it for a a couple of years because i felt it was wrong but then when i heard alot of man do it i went straight back there but this was still after years and years of porn were nothing would do it for me anymore.
     
  9. Bro you are definitely not alone. I've been addicted to tranny porn for years also. I know it didn't start when I was a young child. I think mines hit somewhere between highschool and college. Vanilla porn got old fast. I've seen all kinds of porn I've even views gay porn a few times but ultimately figured out that it wasn't for me. Especially if I'm spending most of the time making squint faces and trying to skip past cringing parts of the video. That's when tranny porn comes in which is essentially "gay" porn. Since the girl is truly a male. But something about tranny porn got me aroused way more than any other porn. I think one of the reasons why is because trannies are so submissive. I've seen videos of trannies just putting their ass in the air and letting the guy just do whatever. That rawness and roughness of it turned me on. Like seriously. If any guy is at a bar and a passable tranny comes up to them knowing she's a tranny and she tells you she just wants you to fuck her asshole I promise you 10/10 guys will at least think about the action of doing it even though they may turn it down. I wouldn't do it because my lines is drawn at fantasy and fantasy only. But I know for a fact if I were to fuck a hot tranny or any tranny of my liking in real life I would love every second of it cause I'll will do everything I imagined in my fantasies to her. But once I bust a nut I know I will want to kill myself because I know it's really a man. It's complicated. I've even jacked off to the thought of screwing some twink I seen on a video who I thought was a trap/tranny at first. I've heard of really big masculine guys who fuck feminine gay guys just because they want to humiliate them and have them as a personal toy. I think that's what my attraction to trannies are. The thought of doing what I want and being as rough as I want. And that thought of giving them what they want and "breeding" them into a real woman. I think that's the best way I can sum up my feelings towards this subject and issue. But I love women. And I know if I were to fuck a tranny no matter how "fine" or "passable" she looks. I would never be able to look a woman in the eyes again cause I would be so ashamed and feel so low. Most straight men feel that if you fuck a guy no matter if he's extremely feminine that you are marked for life and you can only fuck guys from now on you know what I mean. Like you got a stamp on your forehead that makes you an outcast even though people may not know. It's a mind thing. But if your gay be gay if your straight be straight and if your like me straight but watches tranny porn then control yourself. I don't have a problem admitting to myself that I like trannies only in porn. That's just what it is. Most of your friends probably do too. But you will never know. Hell I had a friend who played football who did a gay porn and we had no clue. He use
    to have every girl in school going crazy for him. Shits crazy. But hang in there brother. Sorry for triggers
     
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