Social Anxiety - A cause for relapse, help with a plan!?

I watched a video before on how important it is to become more social when conquering PMO. One tip is be careful what you search for in youtube, I searched for quit porn and some of the videos that come up are just porn, didn't view them or anything, but I know my brain was triggered by getting a semi from the provocative images tagged with the videos.

In quite a few posts I complain about how shit my social life is where I live, in a self-pity state, of not having a life. So obviously my social skills have really deteriorated in the last 6 months. I saw a friend in a nearby city last week, I felt awkwardly shy. I tried to get work in a bar, first shift was okay, but fucked up the second shift, my social anxiety has something to do with that.

I suppose I should try baby steps. To form a strategy to improve the situation. I do out to do shopping, or go to the gym, so it's not that bad, but real socialising with people is a different kettle of fish back here.

I have had bad social experiences which clearly is the reason why I avoided life so much here. I do intend on moving away from here soon, but I think if I try to deal with this now it will help me when I move to the new place.

I hope there's someone who reads this, who was there from being socially withdrawn and got out of it, even better if someone was bullied who had a warped way of thinking and slowly got out of it and reduced their social anxiety.

Thanks for reading guys, I look forward to your replies.

 

Yeah I did MrShuggums, I had a look at a really good website at some options, I've seen a few things which I would like to be involved in. It's a really good start. My mind is against it, the worry and the fear creeps in, I have annoying thoughts about it. The fear of seeing someone who was at my school is one of my biggest fears, especially the ones who treated me like shit, I still to this day believe I deserved it, all thanks to my shyness and sensitivity, and I left that school 10 years ago now. The more I roll it in my head and the more research I do on it, the more it frightens me that I might just have a crap life, basically if you were bullied as a child or a teenager, you are very likely to have issues such as mental health problems, low self esteem, susceptible to drug addition, struggle at work. It's funny how all of these things comply with myself after I left school. It something that fucks my head from time to time.