Someone talk me out of this (trans escort)

Haha that kind of makes more sense. Would you suggest I go for the 90 day streak again, sober and learn from my mistakes or do more controlled m to healthy fantasies perhaps Once every week? I’m not one for giving in but maybe the second option is easier to stick to long term. It’s just hard to know when I’m doing it naturally or wether I’m using it as an addictive behaviour. Plus I dont really feel relief after just m and kind of feel worse for doing it. Now wild sex with a female escort does give me relief and makes me feel pretty masculine and happy the only problem is it’s expensive and becomes addictive. But I don’t feel ashamed of myself or degraded.

 

I think you should focus less on having a 90 day streak and more on just quitting porn. Masturbation once or twice a week is healthy especially if you don't have a sex partner. I masturbated without porn yesterday. It was a needed relief. However, masturbation without porn can be a trigger to watch porn for some people. In my case, I felt less desire to watch porn after masturbating. I think knowing that I can't watch porn even if I wanted to due to my porn blocker plays a role. Escorts are expensive bro. Trust me I know. That's another compulsive habit I'm trying to kick because its fucked up my finances.

 

Wow 2 to 5 times a day without porn? I don't think most guys can masturbate that frequently without porn. Porn gives the illusion that I'm fucking a different woman everytime. Masturbation is just me stimulating myself with my hand. But yeah compulsive masturbation in any form is not good so keep fighting against it.