I don't know how i am going to approach this to you guys, I feel ashamed for talking about this and never really spoken about it with anybody, and because i'm willing to talk, it's because we don't know each other personally so i'm asking for 'external' help from you. It has been way too long since I have had a friend, and everything and everybody has turned their shoulders against me. Not only I don't have much friends, but I have become mental over it, creating imaginary friends in my head.. it's very hard for me to reveal this to anybody. I don't know how this has developed as it has been like this for many years and no one knows about this. I might be going mental, and a psychiatrist might be a solution for me. Nofap is already a huge struggle for everybody willing to recuperate their sexual activity, but this is far worse, maybe even hampering my way through abstaining from PMO, prolonging my journey. This is almost leading me to relapse. I don't feel clean and everything is going in the opposite direction, and I have been doing anything to counteract with very little success. It might sound scary but, I spend alot of time in my room doing nothing productive, and mostly rewarding myself with high dopamine going through the internet, games, film streaming. Not good for you when on nofap right? There you have it, me in a nutshell. I hope I could get some insight on this or whoever feels similar to my case. Thanks in advance.