My relationship is somewhat emotionally devoid -- this is both good and bad. We have no drama, but there also isn't a whole lot of serious feelings happening. She's 21, rendered herself a bit numb in her earlier years, and is a very quiet, shy person. Another girl who I recently started talking to is so ridiculously POSITIVELY emotional that it's inspiring. I am beyond attracted to this girl. I do in fact desire her. But I also respect her, and we're only friends, but man she makes some feelings in me rise up. I'm viewing this as a challenge, to embrace this girl as she cares deeply about my feelings (and everyone's, it's her personality) and to not think of her in a sexual way, but man she is attractive. Posting here to attempt to keep to my word and to slowly condition a happier mental & emotional state with this girl and to push sexual feelings aside as I am in a committed relationship with my current girlfriend. I have a small headache, but know I deserve it. This girl is beautiful and offers me very kind words -- I look up to her, she's so supportive. I hope I can learn to think of her in a non-explicit way and to have her help me with my feelings, including thoughts on abstaining and sin. We'll see how it goes.