Starting something new

Hi everyone,

I'm a 23 y/o male and I've been viewing porn since I was 12 y/o - so over a decade now. I deal with chronic depression and my symptoms starting showing up around the same time that I started watching porn. I feel like I'm just existing most of the time rather than enjoying a fulfilling life. I have come to know myself better and am starting to shed some of my bad habits, PMO is the one habit that I haven't been able to kick. I was on a 18 day streak till this morning. I felt horrible for about 5 minutes but then I noticed I didn't feel as bad as I usually do. I'm trying to overcome this issue using all the resources that are available to me. I came across this site about a year ago but I wasn't taking my porn addiction as seriously as I am now. My short term goal is to abstain from porn, masturbation, and orgasm for a complete month. Then I will try the 90 day challenge. My ultimate goal is to abstain from porn and masturbation indefinitely. I'm optimistic about the future, I can't afford to feel bad for myself right now. Thank you for reading this. Godspeed to all of you, we got this!

 

I relapsed during my final exams week and I went on a streak of watching porn daily for the past few weeks. I felt so defeated and hopeless. I'm restarting now. Thank you guys for the advice and support, I really appreciate it!