Strange Story

Ok, my story is kind of strange.

I'm 28. I watch porn and masturbate for nearly 4 years now. I do it every evening. And actually I don't think that it is too much of a problem. Because I've heard that you're considered to be addicted if you spend like hours in a raw in front of porn, and that's not my case. Also my porn preferences haven't changed for a long time.

Anyway, 2 years ago I managed to stop fapping and watching porn for several months and I'll tell you how I did it. Of course you can tell me that I'm still fapping, but it was my consious decision to get back to this habit, not some relapse.

So basically 2 years ago I was active porn watcher, I was jobless and also I never had a real sex. I felt bad because of all that. And one day I decided to go and have sex with prostitute. In this point you may ask: why didn't I build a normal relationship. My answer is: I'm introverted, it's very difficult for me to choose a right woman for long term relationship, I was jobless at that point, and... You will laugh, but I am disgusted of having sex with woman, that doesn't shave in "that place". And I don't see any way to check it in normal relationship situation.

I realized very quickly, that if you have sex not long after porn/fap thing, the sex turns out to be bad. So I decided that it should be month without fapping before I have sex again. And that's how I didn't fap for ~2 months, kids.

And, yeah, a lot of people like to talk about positive effects of quitting porn. In this half year period I've learnt a new specialty and got a decent job.

Of course after all that sex adventures I was very afraid that I caught some sexually transmitted disease (even though I did all the precautions) But... I went to the doctor, described a situation and he told me that I just have suspicious psychological type and shouldn't worry. But anyway suspicion was stressful enough so I stopped fucking prostitutes and got back to a good old fapping.

And now after 2 years I see that it was a mistake. During period that I've described I've been to massage parlor (where they do only erotic masage), and I've learnt that it is actually better then sex with even elite prostitutes, most of which have no any skill or passion. So, yeah, I should have gone there once in a month or two instead of stupid fap thing. But now of course I can't start doing it because of all this Covid and stuff.

 

Well... being gay is totally normal, I guess. ))))