So my hubby is a porn addict. I discovered his stash about a year ago and he broke down and admitted it. I haven't asked him too many questions as I honestly don't want to know some of the answers. He tried to quit, but a month after our son was born I found more on his computer. This was about three months ago. I have tried to initiate sex several times in the last few months but it's as if he does not realise. He's not interested in sex with me, so he doest take advantage of the kisses and cuddles....I feel so shit. I feel incredibly isolated. I can't speak to any of my friends or family. I love my husband but this has my imagination going crazy and has battered my self asteem. It feels terrible not being enough for your husband. I want to be craved by him, wanted and desired but I don't think he's able to do that... I've decided to find the money to see a counsellor... I need to speak to someone and vent.... I never had a problem with porn until this happened. Now I resent everything about it. It's destructive.
Welcome to the forum! I know getting started can be a scary process. All of this? Isn't your fault tho. These are his issues. He's probably had this going on for a long time. You shouldn't blame yourself. I wish you the very best. Know you are among friends here and if you need to, come back anytime.
Hi @Judith123. Good you came here for some support. When I read your post, I thought "Almost every SO here has the same story. She should know that!!!" I feel for you. I wish you strength and healing.
Hi @Judith123 , i feel sorry for your but you have to be 100% sure that you are enough and the problem is not inside you , my advice to you is to help your partner and support his recovery and do a daily open discussion about this addiction and how it affect your marriage negatively but without blaming each other . God bless your family .
Hi Judith, I'm here bc I'm in the same position, except my SO won't admit he's doing anything so I'm glad you were able to talk to your husband. I know how you feel - rejected. I don't know how anyone feels anything but that. I understand intellectually that it's their problem, not ours, but when they don't feel like it's a problem and we do, it's hard to see it that way some times. Hang in there. Being a new mom is a wonderful and challenging time but you've done a great thing by reaching out for support!