Sudden pain.

I have been in soft-mode 60 days now, and felt very good in general, there was this one week that was very hard because of withdrawal symptons but it passed. Now it has started again, i have been relaxing and resting very much and that has been a good thing, today i was motivated and energetic to do some wood-cutting and some other work few hours, i became so exhausted that i slept like 6 hours after that, now i feel like shit, very horny, physical pain everywhere and exhausted. It just feels very un-motivating that you do some little physical work first time in a long time and feel like shit. What should i do ?

 

Yeah that might be the reason, but its very hard when you cant forecast when your PAWS attack so everything just feels like unbalanced shit all the time, cant get a grip on anything. The swings in mood, bodypain and energy are just so terrible.

I have 20 years of addiction almost everyday watching P.

 

I had 2 days of binging sexual thoughts and masturbating. I did it like 10 times per day, but i managed to stay away from porn.

I felt pretty weird after that and pretty awful. But recovered very fast in 2 days. This thing again shows me that P is much more destructive. Im now actually pretty motivated again, weird thing is that when i started to recover from binging M, i still felt very horny and got random boners even tho i had masturbated like 20 times last 2 days. The battle was hard and my brain was telling me to continue masturbating. So this tells me that if you relapse and start binging excessively, it is pretty hard to get past the first day.

This is second day im clean, and feeling pretty normal again, littlebit brainfog and random tiredness, horniness is gone and no intrest of thinking about women.

One thing what i have figured out too, that if you give in just a littlebit of sexual thoughts, it starts to grow in your mind like a cancer and it is very hard/impossible to make it stop taking over your mind, so it is very important to stay commited not to feed mind with any sexual thoughts.

The battle continues we can do it !!