I just had a flashback... Went back to my old post about the incident which was considered relapse... where I was too stressed out, i constantly watched a girl masturbating asmr or girl sucking on banana etc... since i watched on YouTube the policy covered nudity parts, so it disolayed just their facial expressions and moaning... also this one i don't quite remember I probably watched a girl used condom on cucumber and stroking with her chest... Maybe i scrolled away or not i didn't remember at all... Same thing went with transgender fetish saw all their ass, penis print, twerking etc... All of these i spend like a week on this, due to highly depression and my anxiety was also high since back then i worked as a part time job and studying college... Then i went asked on Reddit about all these... Except the YouTube girls sucking on objects sort of unclear response... People on reddit told me it a huge slipped up, while on nofap forum count as relapsed... Basically i have been relapsed since last year then fooled myself that it was a slipped up even though none of these ended with pmo... People might still considered relapse... I'm done doing nofap... Life hasn't been good anyways... Let's just ended this journey today.
