NoFap

  1. Welcome to NoFap! We have disabled new forum accounts from being registered for the time being. In the meantime, you can join our weekly accountability groups.
    Dismiss Notice

The beast inside of me won, again. The shackles may be on me for GOOD :(

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by Ronald, Jan 31, 2015.

  1. Jan 31, 2015 #1
    Ronald

    Ronald Fapstronaut

    76
    8
    8
    I've been keeping a low profile on this forum, for several months. Only would converse with an AP. I didn't really feel much of a connection when I posted on the forum, so I decided to stop.

    It's the same with facebook. I don't post much on there because I didn't get much a response from people, so I decided to keep a low profile on there.

    I had a target this time to reach just 30 days. I failed on day 29. The death of my father may have had something to do with this, I found out he died 4 days ago.

    I have my issues inside me, poor self-esteem issues that have been embedded in my inner core since I can remember. I needed to know if a life without porn would benefit me. Now that I've dealt with the withdrawals on many occasions. I am uncertain if I can deal the pain any more which comes from giving up.

    Other than having a better functioning penis, I didn't really see no benefits to my self-esteem. They stayed around same shitty level.

    I am writing this new thread not for advice. But for more as story to encourage others to quit porn!

    I have a shitty memory, my vocabulary is terrible, my cognitive performance is terrible, I'm very unproductive at work. Reading up the effects of porn, it is probably the MAIN reason why I have to deal with all these traits. It is more the biggest contributor to my anxiety issues.

    Seriously quit porn NOW! If you're a teenager, please fight to stop watching porn now. This is something which only gets worse, and worse and worse.
     
    Ronald, Jan 31, 2015
    Ronald, Jan 31, 2015
    #1
  2. Jan 31, 2015 #2
    Lesigh

    Lesigh Fapstronaut

    13
    0
    1
    Keep your head up man. I can assure you that the shackles won't be on for good. There is hope, there is always hope. Have you had to do something in your life that you thought, there is absolutely no way I can make this happen and somehow, someway you did it? You felt like a million bucks. If you work hard enough, you can do anything my friend. I am in the same boat as you but I know there is always hope. Keep trucking, you will win.
     
    Lesigh, Jan 31, 2015
    Lesigh, Jan 31, 2015
    #2
  3. Feb 2, 2015 #3
    rubifenrx

    rubifenrx Guest

    Dude, countering the side effects of porn is ENOUGH reason to fight the addiction!

    Man....I know what your talking about.
    All that you've described, I've been through and still go through when I crash and fap.

    Go forward. Get angry! Use anger in a positive way.

    Porn is legal to dumb men down. Its the truth.

    Fight and go above this evil. You CAN do it. Stay on track, if you fall, get up and keep going!
     
    rubifenrx, Feb 2, 2015
    rubifenrx, Feb 2, 2015
    #3
  4. Feb 2, 2015 #4
    Justquit

    Justquit Fapstronaut

    102
    12
    18
    Really sorry to hear about the passing of your father. That must be devastating. Do not bottle those feelings up. Talk to someone you trust and love about it. It can be very easy for us addicts to want to not deal with emotional issues or problems. To bottle them up and self medicate with pmo.
    Also good for you for posting. Sometimes it can be difficult to let your voice be heard thinking that no one will care but there is always someone who cares. I suffer from low self esteem and have the same feelings even on a forum like this.
     
    Justquit, Feb 2, 2015
    Justquit, Feb 2, 2015
    #4
  5. Feb 4, 2015 #5
    Stretch

    Stretch Fapstronaut

    36
    2
    8
    Sorry to head about your dad... I cant begin to imagine how I would deal with something like that.

    you CAN change though. Keep smiling, even if you don't feel like smiling, force yourself to do it and you will feel better.

    Start again with small steps, set small targets like going a day without porn and that way you will start to feel good each time you achieve something.

    I definitely agree with talking to a loved one about things but if you cant do that then maybe start a journal. Not on this site but a private journal and update it daily... List down all the things that you don't like and would want to change about yourself and the MOST IMPORTANTLY, write down all the positive things you have in your life.

    Even stupid things like, I have nice clothes or, I have a full head of hair!! Write down as many as you can and look at them every day... Add new ones as you go so that you are constantly reminding yourself about all the good things about you.

    Good luck and don't give up :)
     
    Stretch, Feb 4, 2015
    Stretch, Feb 4, 2015
    #5
  6. Feb 4, 2015 #6
    iceman40

    iceman40 Fapstronaut

    183
    219
    43
    In 2010 I stopped watching porn, hard as hell but I did it. I was so productive, running 2 businesses, going out with girls, and a amazing time and living a life that was perfect.
    37 days later my father died and my whole world changed. I started to hit the bottle hard, drinking 5 nights a week. Porn was 2-4 times a day, my drive was gone, no passion. Nothing.
    Then I had more shit happen 2 years later and crap I'm in the same PMO place. It took me a long time but now I'm getting back on track.
    After you lose someone you are close to it takes time to heal. Don't be hard on yourself because time will fix all of that. Good luck man
     
    iceman40, Feb 4, 2015
    iceman40, Feb 4, 2015
    #6

Share This Page