I've posted about how I got to 90 days and the struggles along the way before. But I wanted to post something about the benefits of success along the way...as something to look forward to if you're early on in your journey. For me, a lot of the benefits came as a surprise and I've heard that from others as well. Once these positive feelings/interactions start coming, it helps to provide an extra layer of protection and encouragement against relapse. The first benefit that I noticed was feeling more rested. The middle of the night or early morning was a tough time for me when I was struggling and it was often when I would PMO. So, naturally I felt more rested once this stopped. I had trouble sleeping on a couple of occasions early on, likely related to withdrawals, but this went away after the first month. Now, I wake feeling rested. Everyone's circumstances will be different as to when they are most vulnerable, but expect to have more time to do things that really matter. I also noticed that I was actually more emotional which has helped with my marriage. I pay attention to my emotions now, rather than trying to bury them. Swallowing my emotions was a big vulnerability for me and when shit hit the fan, it was often because I wasn't dealing with some issues. I talk with my wife on a daily basis about what's eating at me and what's eating at her too. This has greatly improved our communication and our relationship. I have more confidence in myself than I had in the past. I'm a pretty successful person with my career so that's never been an issue for me, but my personal interactions with people have always had something missing. Now that I feel less ashamed of myself and I've given up the deceitful double-life that I was living, I feel more comfortable just being myself. I don't have anything to hide anymore so I feel better about myself. I'm still struggling to rebuild my wife's trust...this has actually been a bigger battle for me than giving up PMO. I've always wanted to give up PMO. It was no longer an option for me. My family and my marriage mean more to me than anything else. We have plenty of fights still about these issues but I see each fight as a 'hurdle' cleared on my way to rebuilding her trust in me. It's the only way I can make it through the pain/memories related to these fights. At least then I know it's progress towards recovery. Enjoy the positive benefits along the way, gentlemen. Reward yourself for your progress, and keep up the fight.