Long time porn user here. I've known about nofap and ybop for over three years and I've tried multiple times on my own to stop but to no avail. My longest streak of no PMO was sometime around twenty plus days in April/May 2016, but I broke. Then I went without porn for about three months or so when I was in a relationship last Fall and having fairly frequent sex (humble brag city), but as my ex and I started to have relationship problems we started seeing each other less and I went back down the road of porn. I managed to keep it to about once or twice a week up until May, which I convinced myself was normalish and that I didn't have anything to worry about. But starting May 22 I began studying for the July bar exam and spent about 9-12 hours a day behind a desk with my computer. I PMOed. A lot. I just took the bar a few days ago and thought I'd be able to focus on self-improvement, but with no girlfriend and no tasks to put my mind to I crashed hard today. I'm not proud of this, but I spent from 9:30 to 2 switching between Whisper, Tinder, and Bumble on my phone talking to girls and looking at pictures before finally PMOing. At the time I was obviously super into it but right afterwards it was like I was seeing myself for the first time and now I'm just disgusted with myself. Long backstory, feel free to skip it if you want. My goal is to kick porn for good this time and i'm going to do that with the help of this community!
